I'm giving up all expectations

That I will live a meaningful life

I once was filled with inspiration

That lion heart has lost his pride

I am not the person that I thought that I would be

I keep tripping over the same steps

The stars aren’t beautiful

Advice is never useful

And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets

I'd rather die than live like this

I’ve gotta give up giving in

“Some people never will go crazy,

What horrible lives they must lead.”

I'm going to try and paint new scenery

And build a window to help me see

I am not the person that I thought that I would be

I keep tripping over the same steps

The stars aren’t beautiful

Advice is never useful

And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets

I'd rather die than live like this

I’ve gotta give up giving in

I have got my eyelids stapled shut

I have failed but I'm used to it

The past is just that

It's a sunken old ship

There will be moments

I pretend

That I can raise it up

Up back from the depths

Who the fuck am I kidding?

I was born with the curse of always giving in

Every day is another chance

To make peace with myself

But I would rather play dead

Sure it looks easy when it's through borrowed eyes

“The hero has a thousand faces”, none of them matching mine

Fuck the world, fuck the stars, fuck the person you are

None of this will matter if I don't give up folding my cards

I keep tripping over the same steps

The stars aren’t beautiful

Advice is never useful

And I still walk the line held tight with my regrets

I'd rather die than live like this

I’ve gotta give up giving in

I have got my eyelids stapled shut