I was afraid you'd hit me if i'd spoken up I was

afraid of your physical strength I was afraid

you'd hit below the belt I was afraid of your

sucker punch I was afraid of you reducing me

I was afraid of your alocohol breath I was afraid

of your complete disregard for me I was afraid

of your temper I was afraid of handles being

flown off of I was afraid of holes being punched

into walls I was afraid of your testosterone

I have as much rage as you have

I have as much pain as you do

I've lived as much hell as you have

and i've kept mine bubbling under for you

you were my best friend

you were my lover

you were my mentor

you were my brother

you were my partner

you were my teacher

you were my very own sympathetic character

I was afraid of verbal daggers I was afraid of the

calm before the storm I was afraid for my own

bones I was afraid of your seduction I was afraid

of your coersion I was afraid of your rejection

I was afraid of your intimidation I was afraid of

your punishment I was afraid of your icy silences

I was afraid of your volume I was afraid of your

manipulation I was afraid of your explosions

I have as much rage as you have

I have as much pain as you do

I've lived as much hell as you have

and i've kept mine bubbling under for you

you were my keeper

you were my anchor

you were my family

you were my saviour

and therein lay the issue

and therein lay the problem